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GOD CHUCKLED   Leave a comment

This past week we had another week of early morning prayer at the church I attend.  6:00am to 7:00am.

I did my usual thing — I wander.  It is hard for me to sit and pray, or kneel and pray. I need to stand, to walk around.  In circles, or up and down the aisles.  Its a kinetic thing, is the only explanation I can come up with for why I pray that way.

One day this week I was at the front of the church and I remembered to stop talking TO God and just stand and listen to what God might have to say to me.  But being me, I had to preface that with once again asking God to lead me and guide me according to His will, and to keep me in the path of His commands.  Then I said (this is all internal, you understand) what I usually say, “Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.”

And God said, “You’re doing a good job.  Keep it up.”  I am always taken aback when I get a word from God, and I feel Him talk to me.  It is an awesome feeling to have the God of the universe talk to you.  Being me, I started in again, “Oh – thank you God.  I love you so much.  Please let me know if there is anything I need to be doing, or not doing.”

And God chuckled.  And He told me He loved me, and once again told me I was doing a good job and to just keep on doing it.

I’m so glad God understands me and puts up with me, and can chuckle at my foolishness.

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Posted July 8, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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Prayer   Leave a comment

I moved to my smaller apartment on the 23rd.  It was just as stressful and exhausting as I thought it might be.  All during that long, busy day when I would feel my feeling start to overwhelm me, a peace would come on me, and I would find a strength.

Have you ever felt what it was like to feel someone praying for you?  Someone you asked to pray for you, and on the day and time you needed it, they prayed, and you felt it?  I don’t know how to describe the feeling, but that is what I felt like all Friday.

The prayers of the people I know and who I asked to pray for me lifted me up and sustained me and strengthened me.  God is good and God is faithful.  Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Posted October 2, 2016 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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MOVING   Leave a comment

When my dear wonderful husband passed away and I found out I would have to move to a smaller apartment, panic and stress set in.  I thought I’d have to move in a month or two and I was soooo not ready to do that.

God intervened.  God provided.  In ways I’ve already outlined in previous blog posts.  The two months I thought it would be stretched to almost six months now. I am still emotionally totally unready to do this, but that doesn’t really matter.  The move is happening at the end of this week.

I have spent nearly six months crying out to God, pleading, seeking, asking, crying, stressed, anxious, unsure, crying, pleading, praying and …. repeat.  I don’t know about you, but I talk about my emotions with God.  I tell Him how I am feeling and what I am going through.  Of course I know He already knows all this.  But I guess I think a relationship with someone that has lasted over 30 years deserves honesty and transparency, and I don’t think He minds a bit that I unload on Him.

I trust God to take care of me.  God promises many many times in the Bible to take care of and look after orphans and widows.  He certainly has taken care of me long before I became a widow, and I don’t have any doubts that He will continue to do so.  But not knowing where you are going to live or how much it will cost is kind of like living under an anvil that you don’t know when will drop.  At least, for me it has been like that.

God knows I don’t want to move.  God knows all the many faceted reasons why I don’t want to move.  I thought I had help lined up, and it fell through and now I’m going to have to pay movers to move me.  I’ve moving to the apartment in the building across from me; 10 steps away.  And yet I have to pay movers to do that.  And yet, because of the discount the property management company has given me these past 5 months (which I have no doubt is the favor of God) I have money saved.  I will be carrying most of the things over myself since I’ll have a couple days off and can just do it myself.  So I will actually only spend $200, maybe $300 total for the move.  Which is cheap!

And so even though I am so emotional over this whole move process, I have no doubt at all that this whole thing is part of God’s plan for me.  You can’t seek God and talk to God and ask God to lead you and guide you and direct you without accepting and acknowledging when He is moving in your life, and directing it according to His will.  Do I really want God’s will for me?  Even if I know it will mean moving and all the things that will entail?  Yes.  You bet.  No doubt.  I absolutely do.  So I will cry over every box and cry myself to sleep every night, but I will haul those boxes and do the cleaning and fixing and putting away and arranging that needs to be done.  Because I have no doubt it is God’s will for me, and He always has in mind for me what is the very best and right.  If you remember, please pray for me this week.  I need all the prayer support I can get.

Posted September 18, 2016 by Maureen in Musings

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Today ….. and the future   Leave a comment

I’ve been spending a lot of time lately praying about 1) my future, 2) how I can bring people to Christ, and 3) how God wants to use the gifts and talents He gave me for his Glory.

I’ve been asking God if I should go back to teaching Sunday School or assisting in Children’s Ministries.  The church I attend now has a strong leader and seems to have enough teachers.  I have not gotten the impression that they need children’s workers, even though I know from past experience any children’s ministry always needs people.

What I keep getting back from God, it seems to me, is that I am to wait.  Right now, I believe God is telling me, my job for Him is to concentrate on being a wife to my husband.  Since that is something I love to do, I am happy to continue doing it.

I don’t remember where it is but somewhere in the Old Testament (Leviticus?) it talks about some guidelines for when men were to be part of the army. One of the exceptions listed is if a man is newly married.  The guideline is for him to take that first year off and be a husband – enjoy that time together, build the relationship, and no doubt make a baby.  Then he can go off to war.

I feel like that is me at this point.  I am to take this first year off.  Concentrate on being a wife and build our relationship.  (There will be no babies, no.  We are both too old for that and neither of us wants a baby. )

I don’t know what will happen after next January.  I don’t know if God wants me back in Children’s Ministries.  Or, if there is something else for me.  In the meantime, I am continuing to pray, and to listen for God’s direction.

Posted October 27, 2015 by Maureen in Uncategorized

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EVERY DAY   Leave a comment

Several months ago the pastor of the church I attend encouraged everyone to invite the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit into their day.  Every day.

Since then I have tried to do that.  My prayer goes something like this:

“Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, please lead me and guide me today according to your will and plan for me.  Bless the words of my mouth and the works of my hands. Help me to shine for you today, to everyone I will meet or talk to.”

Now I can’t report that I won the lottery or got a big raise or anything like that.  I can tell you I am more calm and relaxed at work and at home.  I can tell you that people are reacting to me in a different (most positive, respectful) way.  I can tell you that I’ve been able to get a lot of work done.

I need God.  I need Him every day.  I cannot do this on my own.  I am too flawed, too prone to outbursts and frustration and loose lips and so many things on my own.  I need God every day.

I invite and encourage you to do your own invitation to the trinity.  Ask them to lead and guide your life every day for two months.  Give God a chance to move in your heart, in your life, in your work, in your home.  Invite Him to be your God every day.

 

Posted September 13, 2015 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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Waiting   Leave a comment

I am waiting.

Waiting to hear, waiting to know, waiting to decide.  Waiting on God.

Have you ever heard that saying that God always answers prayers?  He only ever has three answers:  Yes.  No.  Wait.

I am waiting on God’s will and God’s timing for several things in my life.  I don’t like waiting.  Does anyone?  I want what I want when I want it and not later.  I am not a fan of delayed satisfaction.  Despite this, I have the discipline to wait.  I am not happy while doing it, granted, but I can do it.  Have done it.  AM doing it.  I can’t say that I am patient, but I do know how to wait.

I can do it because I can trust God’s timing.  He has never, ever failed me.  Not even once.  Not even a little.  His timing has always been right.  God is never in a hurry — but He is always on time.

So I wait.  And pray, and continue to ask God to be a conduit of His love and grace, and to help me to stay on His path for me.

What have you waited for that God has answered?

Posted May 20, 2014 by Maureen in Musings

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Lately-Follow Up   Leave a comment

The mediation between my co-worker and I took place last week. I had prepared by thinking through conversations and also making a list for myself of all the important things I wanted to talk about. I prayed and asked God to please help me to speak the truth in love.

We were with the mediator 2 1/2 hours.  Which is a long time, but it went pretty fast.  When I opened my mouth to start talking what came out was not what I had been planning.  But we spent quite a bit of time talking about it, and when I was offered the chance to bring anything else up I brought up only one other thing on my list.

Since I had prayed about it and asked God to help me through this process, I felt I had said everything I needed to say, even though I didn’t say all the things I thought I wanted to say.  It was an environment where my co-worker could feel safe without distractions and really listen to what I was saying.  And I think she did.  I think she really did see things from my perspective, and respect what I had to say.

Maybe nothing will change at work.  Maybe she will go right back to those habits that landed us in mediation after all.  But at least for that period of time I felt that what I was saying was listened to and respected and heard.

Posted October 8, 2013 by Maureen in Christian

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