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Happy New Year!

Over the New Years weekend I drove 7 hours from my sister’s house back to my apartment in another state.  My brother-in-law was in the car with me for half that trip; I was dropping him off at his mother’s so he could drive her to her winter spot in Arizona.

I had asked my church for prayer about the trip, because my brother-in-law is an atheist and I have heard him say some hostile things about Christians.  We were going to be sitting next to each other for 5 hours or so and I asked for prayer about what to say or not say.

To be honest, I had forgotten about the drive with him or the chance to witness to him or talk to him about his beliefs…. until the morning we had to leave.  I had prayed about it ahead of time, but I was having so much fun relaxing and enjoying myself that I forgot all about it until we were on the road.

Once I remembered, I started thinking about what I could say.  How do I bring up the subject of faith, and his own beliefs? In my head, I starting singing that chorus:

Come Holy Spirit, I need thee
Come sweet spirit I pray
Come in thy strength and thy power
Come in thy own special way

And as it turned out… we talked about various things, but faith wasn’t one of them.   And I’ve been wondering ever since if I failed, if I missed an opportunity. Or, if it all happened the way God wanted?  I still don’t know.

One of the reasons I doubt is because I know in myself that I always try to get along with people.  I always try to find some middle ground, some common ground, with them.  I listen to them and I am respectful.  And I think that characteristic in myself means I miss opportunities.

I am the way God created me.  I have always been this way, so I do believe it is the way God wants me to be.  But, I think it is not ALL He wants me to be. I think I can be more.

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Posted January 9, 2018 by Maureen in Christian, Randomness

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Joy?   Leave a comment

Our sermon this morning blessed my heart.  Pastor was giving us a word for the Christmas season, from the book of Nehemiah.  As a side note, I love the book of Nehemiah.  Years ago we had an adult Bible study on it, using a book titled “Hand me Another Brick”.  It is an excellent book – I recommend it.

He was in chapter 8 this morning.  The setting was after the wall was completed.  It was the day of the New Year celebration, and all the people had gathered to hear Ezra reading the book of the Law.  As he read, the words were explained to the people.  The Bible tells us that the people praised the Lord, but also as they heard the words Ezra was reading, they started weeping.  They were convicted in their hearts of their sins, and the sins of their fathers as they heard how they were supposed to live and worship God.

Nehemiah consoled and encouraged them.  “This day is holy to our Lord”, he said.  “Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength“.  (my emphasis) You may have heard those words before.  You may have said them, or taught them.  This morning Pastor reminded us that the joy does not come from us.  We don’t have to have joy before we can get joy.  The joy is a free gift, from God.  It is God’s joy.  He doesn’t wait until we are perfect to give it to us.  He doesn’t wait for our lives to be trouble-free to give it to us.  It is a joy we can have today, for today is holy.

This holiday season, you may not be feeling your best. Your life may not be at a high point right now.  God says to receive the joy.  Receive it on faith if you have to, but receive it.  It is a free gift He gives willingly.  Enjoy the joy.

 

Posted December 17, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Randomness

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Hiding? Or Just Okay?   Leave a comment

I recently watched half of an hour-long TV show, waiting for the show I wanted to watch to come on.  I don’t remember the name of the show; I had never watched it before.  It took place in a hospital.  A older woman was brought in and it turned out her husband had died over a year prior, and at that time (it was a car crash, and she was in the car) she got paralyzed from the waist down.  But now she was starting to feel things in her legs again.

She was a woman of faith and believed that God was healing her, and that all glory and praise should go to Him for her getting feeling back in her legs.  The doctors told her, however, that there was no reason for her paralysis in the first place and that she always had the ability to walk.  Basically, her being paralyzed was her way of putting off dealing with the death of her husband.

And I wondered: Is that me?  This year especially I have been very busy at work, almost all the time.  It is tiring and stressful, but it has also felt like a God-send. It helps me get through each day, and helps take my mind off how much I miss my wonderful husband.

Am I in denial?  Will I wake up one day and feel different?  Have I been stuffing my feelings into the background and busying myself with other things so I don’t have to think about Randy’s death?

I think ….. not. I have already been through devastating loss, when my son was murdered in 2000.  I know about shock, and slowly going through the stages of grief. I know about coming to grips with my loss. I know about thinking of my loss and how it affects me and my life, and I know about facing it.

I don’t believe I am in denial about Randy’s death.  My tears are testament to the fact that I am not denying my feelings.   So, I keep going on.  Trying to be the light that God wants me to be.  Trying to find ways I can shine for Jesus.

I hope this season finds you shining out for God, and receiving blessings in return.

Posted December 15, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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What Are You Thankful For?   Leave a comment

Our church had a Thanksgiving eve service.  As is usual this time of year in the US, our Pastor asked us what we were thankful for this year.

And I thought about it, and then I almost started to cry.  Because the first thing that came to mind was: I am thankful I have made it almost all the way through the year.  I didn’t know if I could, in January.

I have struggled to have a life without my sweet husband Randy.  I have struggled with who I am in Christ.  What should I do?  How will God use me?  What should I be doing for God?  And how can I do all of that, and live my life, without my husband?

So yeah – I am thankful that for some reason God is not finished with me yet.  That somehow I can still make a difference, a contribution.  So I keep on.  Day to day, I keep on.  What are you thankful for this year?

Posted November 23, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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DIRT / CLEAN   Leave a comment

I got my car washed last weekend.  My white car.  (her name is Shadowfax).  My white car that hasn’t been washed in months.  Yes, she was pretty dirty.

For the past week it is like I have a new view on life.  I can see!  My windows are clear!  Clean!  And my backup camera is showing such a clear, sharp picture now!

I truly had no idea 1) how dirty my windows had gotten or 2) how it had affected how I saw things outside the car.  I had grown used to the dirt.  I thought it was normal.  It was something I accepted and just kind of worked around or ignored.

Kind of like sin.  It seeps in.  It grows slowly.  We let a little in, and don’t confess it.  And more gets attracted to the first part.  And before we even know it, we are used to the way things are in sin.  They seem normal.  We can’t see how dirty we are, we just think everything is fine and pretty much the way things have always been.

Until we confess our sin(s) to God.  And we ask Him to cleanse us and free us.  And suddenly we can see how dirty we were.  We can see how clean we are now that the sin has been forgiven.

 

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”  James 5:16

Posted July 14, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Randomness

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GOD CHUCKLED   Leave a comment

This past week we had another week of early morning prayer at the church I attend.  6:00am to 7:00am.

I did my usual thing — I wander.  It is hard for me to sit and pray, or kneel and pray. I need to stand, to walk around.  In circles, or up and down the aisles.  Its a kinetic thing, is the only explanation I can come up with for why I pray that way.

One day this week I was at the front of the church and I remembered to stop talking TO God and just stand and listen to what God might have to say to me.  But being me, I had to preface that with once again asking God to lead me and guide me according to His will, and to keep me in the path of His commands.  Then I said (this is all internal, you understand) what I usually say, “Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.”

And God said, “You’re doing a good job.  Keep it up.”  I am always taken aback when I get a word from God, and I feel Him talk to me.  It is an awesome feeling to have the God of the universe talk to you.  Being me, I started in again, “Oh – thank you God.  I love you so much.  Please let me know if there is anything I need to be doing, or not doing.”

And God chuckled.  And He told me He loved me, and once again told me I was doing a good job and to just keep on doing it.

I’m so glad God understands me and puts up with me, and can chuckle at my foolishness.

Posted July 8, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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What You Can   Leave a comment

There are so many things I don’t know how to do.  There are things I can’t do.  And sure, there are things I don’t want to do.  Currently it is vacuuming.  I have always believed that if there is something we see needs doing and we are able to do it, then we should.

When I was called to go on my first missions trip, it was a different experience for me.  I was sitting in the morning service, listening to the missionary.  I always love listening to missionaries talk about their mission field and the stories they have to tell.  As I was sitting there, I thought to myself, “I could do that.”  As the missionary talked on, I thought to myself, “I should do that.”  And by the time the missionary was done, I was saying to myself, “I will do that.”

What do you see needing to be done around you?  Can you do it?  Are you able?  Then do it, if you can.  Not for recognition or praise.  But because it needs doing.

Posted June 24, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Randomness

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