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Waiting for Life to Happen   Leave a comment

“I do not understand what I do.  For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”

The Apostle Paul’s words to the church in Rome (Romans 7:15) describe me lately.  Instead of doing the plethora of things available to me…. things I like to do, need to do, should do…… I waste time.  I put things off.  I don’t do what I know I should do.

Why is that?  Why do I do that?  Is it sin, or just laziness?  Is it something deeply psychological, or just procrastination? It is like I am waiting for life to happen to do the things I ought to do.  Life is now!  Life is what happens to me every day!  I should not waste or squander or misspend the time God has given me. 

And yet, too often, I do.  I often promise myself I won’t, but then I forget.  Or just choose not to follow thru.  Which is not the kind of person I usually am.  If I am not that way with other people, why do I treat myself that way?  Then I think it is just because I am single.  If I had a husband, I wouldn’t be this way.  Would I?  Does that truly have anything to do with it?  Or am I just feeling sorry for myself?

So I continue to endeavour as best I can.  To make the most of each day.  To read the Bible, pray, and be the best kind of light and witness I can for God.  Some days I am better at that than others.

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”  (Philippians 3:14)

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Posted April 20, 2012 by Maureen in Being Single, Christian, Musings

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