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What Are You Thankful For?   Leave a comment

Our church had a Thanksgiving eve service.  As is usual this time of year in the US, our Pastor asked us what we were thankful for this year.

And I thought about it, and then I almost started to cry.  Because the first thing that came to mind was: I am thankful I have made it almost all the way through the year.  I didn’t know if I could, in January.

I have struggled to have a life without my sweet husband Randy.  I have struggled with who I am in Christ.  What should I do?  How will God use me?  What should I be doing for God?  And how can I do all of that, and live my life, without my husband?

So yeah – I am thankful that for some reason God is not finished with me yet.  That somehow I can still make a difference, a contribution.  So I keep on.  Day to day, I keep on.  What are you thankful for this year?

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Posted November 23, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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There are books… and books   Leave a comment

I have a Kindle that my dear husband got me a few years ago.  I totally love it, and read anywhere from 5-10 books a month on it.  Every once in a while I will read one of my actual paper books I have.

This month I finished my Kindle books early, so I decided to go through a series I really like, reading each paper book in order.  (Lois McMaster Bujold’s “Vorkosigan” series)  I can’t put these books down!  This is a series I have read — at least 3 times all the way through.  I can’t remember exactly.  I know what’s coming.  I know the dialogue.  There are no surprises.  And yet — I can’t seem to put these books down!

Is it the actual tactile thing of holding a paper book in my hand?  Needing a light to read, since I can’t rely on a backlit screen?  Turning actual pages instead of tapping a screen?  I am not sure what.  But I am enjoying these books just as much as the first time I’ve read them.  Books are books, but sometimes a book can be more enjoyable in a different format.

Posted October 20, 2017 by Maureen in Musings, Randomness, Uncategorized

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LEARNING   Leave a comment

I haven’t been feeling well recently.  Normally I am a very healthy person; I rarely get sick.  But I really did feel awful, off and on for months. Then in August I began to feel really bad.  Bad enough that I went to the doctor, which is rare for me.

Many, many tests and procedures later, I have been diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome.  I am not happy about this, but it is what it is.  In educating myself about this condition, I realized I have had it for a long time, and it didn’t just “pop up” as I first thought.

As a woman, it is pretty normal for me to just keep on.  Feel tired?  Feel lousy?  Just keep pushing!  Come on, don’t be a wimp!  There is work to be done!  I am used to being the one to do things, to get things done. I rely on God and myself, not others. If I don’t do it, it doesn’t get done.  Does this sound familiar?

My body had been telling me to take care of it, and I hadn’t been listening.  Or, I listened but didn’t do anything about it.  And, I really can’t do that anymore.  I don’t ever want to get a bad flare up like I had in August again.  So I am having to slow down some.  I am having to say “Yes” to myself sometimes instead of always “No”.  I need to be better at relaxing.

So, recently I took myself out to breakfast.  I went to a live play.  I booked a couple of days in a small cottage in a place I have never been before.  All those things cost money, but not a great deal of money.  I’ve changed the way I eat, and what I eat. And I’ve lost weight.

I’ve been praying that I can be a good steward of all God gives me. That includes this body.  At my age you would think I would have learned these things and have already been taking better care of my body.  But, again as a woman, I am much better at taking care of others than I am of myself.

Posted October 10, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

GOD CHUCKLED   Leave a comment

This past week we had another week of early morning prayer at the church I attend.  6:00am to 7:00am.

I did my usual thing — I wander.  It is hard for me to sit and pray, or kneel and pray. I need to stand, to walk around.  In circles, or up and down the aisles.  Its a kinetic thing, is the only explanation I can come up with for why I pray that way.

One day this week I was at the front of the church and I remembered to stop talking TO God and just stand and listen to what God might have to say to me.  But being me, I had to preface that with once again asking God to lead me and guide me according to His will, and to keep me in the path of His commands.  Then I said (this is all internal, you understand) what I usually say, “Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.”

And God said, “You’re doing a good job.  Keep it up.”  I am always taken aback when I get a word from God, and I feel Him talk to me.  It is an awesome feeling to have the God of the universe talk to you.  Being me, I started in again, “Oh – thank you God.  I love you so much.  Please let me know if there is anything I need to be doing, or not doing.”

And God chuckled.  And He told me He loved me, and once again told me I was doing a good job and to just keep on doing it.

I’m so glad God understands me and puts up with me, and can chuckle at my foolishness.

Posted July 8, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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LIKE A LITTLE KID   Leave a comment

I have been volunteering as a teacher or assistant in Children’s Ministry at churches I attend for…. wow – 16 years.  I didn’t quite realize how long it had been until I wrote that.  One of the things I have always heard was that to be successful in children’s ministry you have to be kind of a big kid yourself. And I have never really thought of myself as a big kid.

So this week was kind of a chuckling eye opener for me.  On Wednesday nights I trade off teaching the Grade School kids with another teacher.  We finished our curriculum last week and the new one has not come in, so we had a party.   Since she’s the Children’s Minister for the church she did all the work, bless her heart.  She bought snacks and drinks and set up games for us.

I came into the Kids area and a big grin spread across my face.  Ping Pong!  I LOVE ping pong!  Corn Hole!  I LOVE corn hole!  A carpet bowling game!  I LOVE carpet bowling!  Tiny cupcakes!  Pretzels!  YEAH!!!

I wrote her the next day how much I enjoyed it.  I was just being honest and letting her know her hard work and planning had not gone unnoticed or unappreciated.  She wrote back, “One of the things I love about you is that you are truly a kid at heart.”  It made me smile.  ‘Cause, I guess I did sound like a little kid in my email.  And I guess I really am a kid at heart when you get right down to it.  And since Jesus said we should all have the heart of a child, that is okay with me that I am that way.

Posted May 26, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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PRAYER   Leave a comment

I gave my heart and life to God in September, 1986.  Or it might have been 1987.  At any rate — a long time ago.  One thing I heard right away from God was “pray”.  Which I have done all these years.  I have read books on prayer, heard sermons on prayer, attended numerous prayer meetings, and been on prayer chains.

Isn’t it great that God always has something new for us to learn?  At the beginning of each year it is the practice at the church I attend to start off the first full week with early morning prayer, and then about the middle of the month to the end of the month, our Pastor calls us to fast.  He teaches about both these things before we do them, and encourages us to participate during January.

This year he decided to have the early morning prayer hour each month, during the first full week of each month.  And I have attended each one.  It works out well with my work schedule and I have enjoyed it very much.  God has given me visions for myself and the church and my theme has been “Further Up and Further In”, meaning strive towards the goal, the prize.  Try to know God better and deeper here on Earth and share that with others.

Through all this my prayer life has gotten deeper and… has had more clarity. I feel better, through and through.  I didn’t think I needed it, but God has shown me that I only thought I was praying before.  My prayer life has gone further up and further in towards God and my relationship with Him.

Go Further UP. Go Further In to God.  And with God.

 

 

Posted May 13, 2017 by Maureen in Uncategorized

REMEMBER   Leave a comment

We remember, Jesus, what you did for us.

We remember, Jesus, the beatings and disrespect and the blood you shed for us.

We remember, Jesus, that you took our sins upon yourself.

We remember, Jesus, that you loved us so much you did that for us.  The wretched, cracked, broken, and leaky clay vessels that we are.

Thank you, Jesus.   I remember today.

Posted April 14, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Uncategorized

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