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Happy Easter   Leave a comment

This coming Sunday is Easter.  I love Easter.  I love that my Jesus rose alive from the grave for me, to wipe my sins away.  I love the music, symbolism, and Bible descriptions surrounding the risen Lord and the empty tomb.  I love the Spring flowers this time of year, new dresses to wear to church, hats, candy, eggs, egg hunts —- all of it.

But I have been struggling.  I work right next to someone who is in her 60’s and has ADHD as well as anxiety issues.  She is always in movement, always talking, and very, very anxious about, well, everything.  It is a constant bombardment every day.  The sister I live with is filled with fears and anxieties.  I get only the peripherals of that, but it still inhabits the home we share and is pervasive.

I also have a huge down-grade in my living situation looming on the horizon.  It is too complicated to go into all the details, but due to decisions my sister has made at some point in the future I will be forced into a living situation that is much lower and more precarious than I have had in my life.

I love the longer daylight hours and bloom plants everywhere – but I struggle with seeing beauty.  I am secure in my knowledge that Jesus is Lord, there is only one God, and that I am saved by grace alone.  But I struggle with holding onto happiness.  I have many blessings in my life and am so fortunate in so many ways – but I struggle with anger and uncertainty about my future and what is going on with my sister.

I serve a risen savior, he’s in my heart today.

I know that He is living,

Whatever men may say

I see His hand of mercy,

I hear His voice of cheer.

And just the time I need Him

He’s always near.

 

He lives!  He lives!  Christ Jesus lives today!

He walks with me and talks with me

Along life’s narrow way.

He lives!  He Lives! Salvation to impart!

You ask me how I know He lives?

He lives within my heart.

 

Posted April 16, 2014 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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Lately   Leave a comment

Lately I’ve been having a lot of problems with a co-worker.  We have a unique seating arrangement, no one else at work has a setup like we do.  We basically sit in each other’s back pocket and can hear and see everything that goes on during the day.  Everything.  (And I am sorry to say there is no hope for our seating arrangement to change.)

Yeah.  With that, and having very different personalities and outlooks on life…. it has led to conflict.  While I am far from perfect and have my faults and, well, shall we say – quirks – my co-worker is very self-centric and extremely defensive when talked to about anything that she is doing/saying.  Which makes it very hard to gain any understanding or empathy, or to even just have a conversation about a situation that has caused me stress.

My boss finally got fed up with the whole thing and has asked a mediator to mediate between my co-worker and myself.  Our employer pays for it and we can take time off from work with pay to meet with her.  I have been working full-time in business offices since I was 17 (I’ll give you hint: that was many many years ago.  Like, more than 30.) and I have never ever had a situation with a co-worker reach these proportions.

It is affecting my health and prayer life, and certainly my attitude.  I am proceeding through the mediation process, with no hope whatsoever that anything will change at work.  Our first joint meeting is next week.  I’ll keep you posted on how things go.

In the meantime, I am struggling to maintain my prayer life and usual cheerful outlook.  All I can do is speak the truth in love, right?

Posted September 17, 2013 by Maureen in Musings

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