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When to give up a dream   Leave a comment

What was your plan or dream as a child?  Did you know what you wanted to do in life?  Did you aspire to be something, or do something?  Did you have more than one dream or plan for yourself?

Yeah — how’d that turn out for you?

For me — my life is nothing like I had ever thought it would be.  That of course does not mean I have a bad life.  It is …. just not what I had ever wanted.

I’ve had to let go of some dreams lately.  I don’t think my dreams were unrealistic or far-fetched.  But somehow, some way, I believe they were not in God’s plan for me. 

How do I know this?  Well, God did not speak audibly or in some other revelatory way reveal it to me.  But I have prayed and thought long and hard about these dreams.  And now, years later, when it would be much harder but not impossible to fulfil those dreams, I still am not close to achieving them.

Have you ever tried to help God?  You know what I mean.  You are just so sure that …… oh for instance that God would want you to have a brand new car.  You have wanted a new car, dreamed of a new car, talked about a new car, researched new cars, and you are  convinced that God wants you to have a new car.  It is His plan for you to have a new car.  So you try to buy one, and they won’t give it to you because your debt to income is too high.  You tried to ‘help’ God.

Remember when Abram was promised a child, and year after year after lonely year went by and he and Sarai did not have any children?  And so they tried to ‘help’ God by having Abram have a baby with Sarai’s slave.  And that’s just one Biblical example of how someone tried to help bring about God’s will.

Sometimes God has brought circumstances into my life where I have been in a position that I wanted and sought after.  That I felt I was fully qualified for.  That I just knew I could be good at.  And God revealed to me through a  process that the position I had sought after, climbed towards, yearned for …… was not right for me.  I don’t know if God works that way with all people, but He does with me.  Maybe it is just because I can be a slow learner, and He knows just what will work with me to reveal His will and plan for me.

One dream I have had, as far as I remember all my life, is to be married.  I truly do want to be married, and I think — I know — I will make a good wife.  That is not a dream I have let go of.  My boyfriend and I are still going strong and are totally monogamously committed to each other.  My hope and prayer is for us to continue in our relationship in marriage.  Time will tell on that dream.

I don’t trust in plans or dreams.  I trust in God, who has proven Himself faithful in my life.  His plans are for my best.  I can trust Him to know what is best and want what is best for me.  So, while it is with a sense of loss and a pang in my heart, I have let a couple of dreams slip away.  It is the right thing to do; but it does come with a sense of loss.

Posted May 21, 2012 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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