Archive for May 2011

Desperately Seeking   1 comment

I have been “putting myself out there” the last two weeks.  Does anyone still use that phrase?  Almost every day, I have been sending at least one and sometimes up to three emails to men whose profiles I like on the two dating web sites I’m part of.  Bold.  Nervy even.  Desperate?

I read a post recently by a Christian man on a bulletin board on one of the web sites that encouraged those who really did want to get married — to reach out more.  To be a bit more assertive in their search and not just sit behind their keyboards, looking and waiting.  So, with daily prayer and seeking, that is what I have been doing.  And you know, aside from the silence from my emails and a few rejections…….. it hasn’t been a bad experience.  I feel positive that I am taking action.  The amount of prayer I’ve been doing around the dating/finding a husband thing has increased, and I feel that God has been blessing my search.  Not with, you know, an actual husband yet — but blessing nevertheless.

I was reminded this morning that the last three semi-serious relationships I was in all started around the Fourth of July. Which is coming in just over a month.  Hmmm…. makes a girl wonder if there is perhaps a desperate man out there, seeking for his other half.  Stay tuned.

Looking…. and discerning   1 comment

This is me. Searching profiles on a free dating web site… which shall remain nameless. 

Freakin’ A this is hard!!!!  I didn’t think I was very picky, until I started exploring this web site. It has several features that I really like.  Which I won’t share since it will give the site away.  But there are lots and lots of men near me that are in my age group on this site.  Great, right?  AND there are also a lot of Christian men, who are near me, in my age group, on this site.  Even better, right?

You might think so, but nnnnooooooooooo!!  99% of the men who I have seen that live near me (with 200 miles), are Christian (I can’t tell you how I know, but you can tell from the site) and who are in my age group are ——– are you ready? ——- are looking for ladies in their 30’s. Sometimes 40’s.  I’m not making that up or exaggerating.  AAAGGGGGG!!!!!!!  Why, why, WHY is it so hard to find someone?  I look at these profiles, trying to discern if he is telling the truth, if he is making things up or embellishing.  Trying to figure out if I should gather the shreds of my courage and contact him.

And I have reached out to more than a half-dozen of those men who has listed their age range as being outside mine.  Know how many replies I got back?  Two.  Both said thanks very much and good luck on my search, or something like that.  Polite. Acknowledging my note to them.  Being a gentleman.  The rest: nada.  How rude is THAT? 

So I continue slogging through the profiles.  Screwing my eye up.  Looking at it one way.  Then the other.  Weighing.  Trying to ….. figure it out.  Sigh.

Morning Light   2 comments

Morning light is my favorite.
When the sun is slipping, stealing,
peering above the horizon,
just before becoming full day.

Light chases shadows;
oranges, yellows, reds.
Warm and fuzzy shades.
The light hits the high points,
leaving folds of shadows on
hills and trees.

The sleepy birds chirp themselves awake.
Cats yawn and stretch, and
dogs shake and wag their tails.
Shorebirds, ducks, and geese start their
daily search for tasty morsels.

I love the morning light. 
When it hits the ocean waves
And softens the blues and greens
of the water.

I love the morning light
as it slips over the neighbor’s fence
and slowly lights up my breakfast.

I love the morning light
as it chases away the darkness of night
and always brings with it the promises
of another day; people to meet and things to do.

Posted May 12, 2011 by Maureen in Poems, Randomness

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