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This coming Sunday is Easter.  I love Easter.  I love that my Jesus rose alive from the grave for me, to wipe my sins away.  I love the music, symbolism, and Bible descriptions surrounding the risen Lord and the empty tomb.  I love the Spring flowers this time of year, new dresses to wear to church, hats, candy, eggs, egg hunts —- all of it.

But I have been struggling.  I work right next to someone who is in her 60’s and has ADHD as well as anxiety issues.  She is always in movement, always talking, and very, very anxious about, well, everything.  It is a constant bombardment every day.  The sister I live with is filled with fears and anxieties.  I get only the peripherals of that, but it still inhabits the home we share and is pervasive.

I also have a huge down-grade in my living situation looming on the horizon.  It is too complicated to go into all the details, but due to decisions my sister has made at some point in the future I will be forced into a living situation that is much lower and more precarious than I have had in my life.

I love the longer daylight hours and bloom plants everywhere – but I struggle with seeing beauty.  I am secure in my knowledge that Jesus is Lord, there is only one God, and that I am saved by grace alone.  But I struggle with holding onto happiness.  I have many blessings in my life and am so fortunate in so many ways – but I struggle with anger and uncertainty about my future and what is going on with my sister.

I serve a risen savior, he’s in my heart today.

I know that He is living,

Whatever men may say

I see His hand of mercy,

I hear His voice of cheer.

And just the time I need Him

He’s always near.


He lives!  He lives!  Christ Jesus lives today!

He walks with me and talks with me

Along life’s narrow way.

He lives!  He Lives! Salvation to impart!

You ask me how I know He lives?

He lives within my heart.


Posted April 16, 2014 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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