Do you like that word? It is very descriptive, don’t you think?
Since I moved from Washington State to California I have felt this way. I was lost, drifting, bearing-less. Floundering. Flailing. Wandering aimlessly.
It took some time to feel like I fit in, to get comfortable, settled, unpacked, remodeled, oriented. It was a gradual process.
This year, 2011, for the first time since moving, I feel like I have gotten my feet under me and am moving forward. To where? Ah, now that is a question! I don’t know At least, I’m not sure. Marriage? If God wills. A dog? We’ll see. More involvement in church and with friends and in volunteering? Definitely!
I’m not feeling discombobulated anymore. I am feeling myself, whole. I am looking forward, straining towards what is ahead, with a heart that is not only seeking its earthly partner, but a heart that also yearns to please and honor God.
