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God Loves You   Leave a comment

When we see a beautiful sunset or sunrise, when we see a beautiful mountain lake or the ocean waves splashing on white sand, we may sigh and enjoy the beauty.  When we see a bald eagle soaring above or a fat Robin hopping in the grass, or a dappled fawn hiding with its mom on the edge of a wood, we may sigh and wonder at creation and the variety.  We may not like to see the ants and beetles and spiders, but they are all around us.

I think God looks at that sunset and says, “Ahhhhh.  I got just the right amount of orange in that one.”  I think he looks at the waves splashing and remembers the first time he blew on the waters he had just spoke into being, creating the first wave.  He saw the bald eagle in its nest when it was still in its egg.  He knew where the Robin had grown up and He has watched it every day as He provides food and shelter for it.  He knows that dappled fawn will some day be a large buck, and sees all the days of its life.  He watches the ants and marvels at the spider’s web and provides for the beetles.

God knows you.  God knew you before you were born.  He knows how many hairs you have on your head.  He knows each day that you will have.  You were created in His image, and He loves you.  He loves you.  He loves you.  You are his dear child.  All He wants is for you to accept him for the one and true and only God, and to believe that He sent His only son so you would not have to die apart from Him.

Whether you have a sweetheart to spend the day with today or you feel alone: know that God loves you.  He watches over you; He never sleeps.  Just as much as He cares for the ants on the ground or the eagle who soars, He cares for you.  God loves you.

Posted February 14, 2019 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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What Are You Thankful For?   Leave a comment

Our church had a Thanksgiving eve service.  As is usual this time of year in the US, our Pastor asked us what we were thankful for this year.

And I thought about it, and then I almost started to cry.  Because the first thing that came to mind was: I am thankful I have made it almost all the way through the year.  I didn’t know if I could, in January.

I have struggled to have a life without my sweet husband Randy.  I have struggled with who I am in Christ.  What should I do?  How will God use me?  What should I be doing for God?  And how can I do all of that, and live my life, without my husband?

So yeah – I am thankful that for some reason God is not finished with me yet.  That somehow I can still make a difference, a contribution.  So I keep on.  Day to day, I keep on.  What are you thankful for this year?

Posted November 23, 2017 by Maureen in Christian, Musings, Uncategorized

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1 Year   Leave a comment

My husband and I recently had our one year wedding anniversary.  We had been together as a couple for 3 years prior to getting married, so there were not a whole lot of surprises for either of us once we were sharing an apartment together.  Some things I’ve learned about my wonderful husband this past year:

  • He is quickly mollified and happy when I acknowledge when he is right about something.  “You’re right” has probably stopped more arguments between us than anything else.
  • Being disabled and not working, he has developed a different time sense than I have, who has a full time busy job.  Something this works in our favor, and sometimes not.
  • He likes to stretch himself.  He likes to cook something he’s never cooked before.  He likes to try new cooking gadgets. He likes to learn new things.  He likes to listen to new viewpoints.
  • He is not afraid to test himself and push himself physically, despite his disabilities.

Some things I think my husband has learned about me:

  • I’m far from perfect, and sometimes I get cranky or impatient or forgetful (or, heaven forbid, all three).
  • When I have the time and resources, I blossom when I can do creative things.
  • My faith is as integral to me as my circulatory system, hair color, and skin color.
  • I love to laugh at silly things and clever things.

We are just as in love now as when we got married.  We work very well together, we compliment each other in personalities, we respect each other, and we try every day to make the other person’s life better and more comfortable.  I thank God that we are together.

Posted January 31, 2016 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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Never Ending   1 comment

My only son was killed 15 years ago.  It was devastating for me, and I plunged into two years of deep emotional shock.  It was only by the grace and love of God that I was able to get through it and come out of my shock slowly.

Every year, around his birthday and the anniversary of the day of his death, I have had problems.  I get so sad.  I get very emotional.  I feel myself slipping into shock and grief again.  It has been overwhelming at time, and feels never ending.  I just don’t want to feel this way. I want to remember my son and his life without all the sadness and loss and grief.

But it seems I am destined to feel this way.  I get through it every year, twice a year, but it is never pleasant.  It has gotten a bit better every year (I used to have to take days off to be by myself), but all the feelings come back year after year.  I have not thought of anything to “do” with the feelings and loss.  Perhaps that is why they keep coming back.

My husband has never wanted children, and has none of his own.  I told him about my son being killed early in our relationship, and he is one of the few people I can talk to about it, and even if I cry and even if he doesn’t understand from the perspective of a parent — he has always been supportive and he feels comfortable talking about it with me, and can even bring my son into casual conversation.

This year, perhaps because it is the 15th anniversary, and 15 is kind of a milestone, I had more problems than usual.  My husband sent me an email, part of which is quoted below.  I love my husband so much, and thank God for him.

“I know that you know how much I love you, and that I am here for you. But I also want you to know that I will be thinking of John as well as you, because he helped make you into the woman I love so much.”

 

Posted September 26, 2015 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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ADJUSTMENTS   Leave a comment

My husband has several long-term chronic health problems.  He has developed two more since we started dating (we just had our 4th anniversary!).  The latest one started 10 months ago.

I knew well before I married him that his chronic health problems would only worsen.  Aside from a miracle healing from God, one thing or the other would finally kill him in the end.  We had expected things to start worsening 3-5 years from now.

We did not expect them to worsen immediately after we married.  It has been an adjustment for us.  Gradually, I have to take over all the duties.  Cooking and cleaning and taking care of him and our cat.  He has to stay close to home, or not go too far from it.  Going on a honeymoon is out the question.  Even going away for the weekend is out of the question.  I have a big family gathering coming up soon at a cousin’s house, and we don’t think he will be able to go to that.

We have talked about it a lot, and continue to talk about it.  Neither of us is very happy with this development, but we strive to adjust as best we can.

Life never really turns out the way you want it, or plan for it, or think it will, does it?  God alone is eternal and never-changing.  THIS is something to count on.

Posted July 6, 2015 by Maureen in Christian, Randomness

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Not Surprised   Leave a comment

I’ve been hearing about how remarkable in American History the past week has been.  As heart-breaking as I think the Supreme Court decision was to me, I have to agree.

God was not surprised by what happened last week.  He didn’t say, “Whoops!  Didn’t see that one coming!”  And the thing is (and I am quoting someone else here) — Love Wins.  Love has already won.

You have no doubt heard talk about how we should hate the sin and love the sinner. Others have turned that around and insist no one has any right to judge anyone and if you don’t fully agree with me well, then, you are a hater.

To God, all sin is sin.  Stealing is sin.  We should be against stealing.  Adultery is a sin.  We should be against adultery, and not do it ourselves.  Idolatry is sin, and we should not have any idols.  Lying, coveting, drunkenness and swindling are all sins.  Homosexuality is a sin.

Jesus loved the sinner and yet he recognized their sins and knew they were wrong.  He didn’t dance around it – he simply acknowledged they were sinning.  And he loved them anyway.  Sat down at a table for a meal for them.  Went into their homes, walked with them along the road.

We don’t have to hate.  We can readily acknowledge the person is a sinner.  Has sinned, is sinning.  Guess what?  So do I!  So am I.  I am a sinner — the only difference is I am saved by grace.  There is no hate there, there is only acknowledgement and recognition.  And the love and grace of God that is open to everyone.

Love wins!

Posted June 29, 2015 by Maureen in Christian

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Lessons Learned as a Newlywed   Leave a comment

My husband and I had been together 3 ½ years before we got married.  I thought I knew him very well.  We had experienced a lot together in those years – good and bad.  Our relationship had gone through all kinds of changes, and weathered storms.  I knew that I knew that I knew I wanted to marry this man and be his wife the rest of our lives.  I was certain I knew him well.

And yet – after we were married I found out some things I had not known about him.

I had no idea he would make that particular sound when a heavy piece of glass got accidentally dropped on his foot.

I had no idea he was good at putting together things like a 4-shelf stand from Ikea.  Make that anything from Ikea.  He has way more patience than I in doing that stuff – and he follows the directions!

I didn’t know he got distracted so easily while unpacking.  He does not work, so he is home most of the day every day, and when I come home I am invariably faced with pieces of projects in the dining room, living room, and library.  Sometimes also down the hall.

I didn’t know he wouldn’t mind (heck – he asked me!) me rearranging his whole dresser.  Refolding clothes, reorganizing, sorting.

I didn’t know he would be so protective of me enjoying at least part of the weekend.  He actively seeks to get me to relax and not unpack or search for things or clean or organize or shop.  He wants me to be able to enjoy the weekend, after working all week.

The lessons I’ve learned from these revelations are: You are never too old to learn something new.  And – people can still surprise and even delight you even after you know them well.

Posted April 13, 2015 by Maureen in Musings

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