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Still Breathing In and Out   Leave a comment

My husband’s service was last Saturday.  For days beforehand, and all day that day until 1:00 pm I kept saying to myself, “I DON’T want to do this!”  But I did.  Because he was only going to get one memorial service, and I wanted to do it right.  And it was done right.  It was a fitting, moving, unique memorial of his life and the person he was.  And we had lots of food afterwards, which he would have enjoyed very much.

I was totally spent the next day.  And the day after, truth be told.  Not only sad and feeling the loss, but drained from all the emotions of Saturday.  And yet God gave me strength.  He gives me strength.  Just enough to get through each day.

On the Friday before the memorial, my little sister sent me flowers via FedEx.  It was a dozen of the same kind of orchids I had in my wedding bouquet.  I burst into tears when I opened the package.  Sad, but also very happy memories.  I so appreciated her doing that, and remembering me and my husband that way.  Monday, after a long day and being very very tired emotionally and physically, I got an email out of the blue from the property management company that runs the apartment complex where I live.  “Maureen,” the email said, “we don’t want you to worry about anything.  Next month we’ve taken $1,000 off your rent.”  Who DOES that?  I never asked them to do something like that — never even thought to ask for that.  But God knew.  God does stuff like that.

I saw a friend at work this week.  She had never met my husband, but she knew me and had been very happy about my engagement and then marriage.  She gave me a sad smile, and then just hugged me. That’s it.  She didn’t say anything, she just gave me a big hug.  I’ve had people at church come up and take my hand and tell me, “I know what you are going through – I lost my spouse.”  And that is all they say.  Just that.  That is all that is needed.

I’ve been getting cards in the mail from people.  I know a couple that have been missionaries to orphans and widows all over the world.  They have a terrific ministry and I have been on three missions trips with their group.  I know them personally and have been in their home.  They sent me a lovely card …. and a check for $100.

I’m moving from strength to strength, taking each day in whatever sized chunk I can handle at a time.  Resting in God’s grace and His foundation.

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Posted April 29, 2016 by Maureen in Christian, Married Musings

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Not Surprised   Leave a comment

I’ve been hearing about how remarkable in American History the past week has been.  As heart-breaking as I think the Supreme Court decision was to me, I have to agree.

God was not surprised by what happened last week.  He didn’t say, “Whoops!  Didn’t see that one coming!”  And the thing is (and I am quoting someone else here) — Love Wins.  Love has already won.

You have no doubt heard talk about how we should hate the sin and love the sinner. Others have turned that around and insist no one has any right to judge anyone and if you don’t fully agree with me well, then, you are a hater.

To God, all sin is sin.  Stealing is sin.  We should be against stealing.  Adultery is a sin.  We should be against adultery, and not do it ourselves.  Idolatry is sin, and we should not have any idols.  Lying, coveting, drunkenness and swindling are all sins.  Homosexuality is a sin.

Jesus loved the sinner and yet he recognized their sins and knew they were wrong.  He didn’t dance around it – he simply acknowledged they were sinning.  And he loved them anyway.  Sat down at a table for a meal for them.  Went into their homes, walked with them along the road.

We don’t have to hate.  We can readily acknowledge the person is a sinner.  Has sinned, is sinning.  Guess what?  So do I!  So am I.  I am a sinner — the only difference is I am saved by grace.  There is no hate there, there is only acknowledgement and recognition.  And the love and grace of God that is open to everyone.

Love wins!

Posted June 29, 2015 by Maureen in Christian

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Forgiveness   Leave a comment

I read something today I wanted to share.  I read “Our Daily Bread” devotional every day.  I have been doing that for over 30 years now.  I like the little monthly booklets myself, but this popular devotional comes in other formats.

One of the devotionals I read today said, “You are never so much like Jesus, as when you forgive.”  And that struck a cord with me.  It also reminded me of something I heard in church last Sunday.  The Pastor was talking about when Jesus said, “It is finished!” on the cross.  The Greek word used for “finished” meant the debt was paid.  Not just paid, but paid for all time.  And by extension, when Jesus said that he was declaring that everyone’s sin debt had been paid.

How powerful is that?  That Jesus did that for us, in suffering, in anguish, in pain?  Thank you Jesus.

I have someone in my life that I have struggled to forgive.  This person, who is close to me, has said and done things that have been extremely hurtful to me.  I have really struggled with being around this person and being polite to them.  The things they have said cut me deeply. I have asked God for grace to deal with them, and He has granted me that.

And now I am thinking I just need to forgive.  And try to forget and put it behind me.  Because I do want to be like Jesus.  I want to be less like myself and the world and more like Jesus and the Father.

Do you have someone in your life you need to forgive?  By ourselves we can’t — but with God’s help, with the grace He provides, and remembering what Jesus did for us, we can.

Posted November 21, 2014 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

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