Archive for the ‘change’ Tag

SOMETHING DIFFERENT   Leave a comment

Have you ever wanted a change?  Wanted to shake things up, try something new, disrupt your routine, expand your horizons?

I have.  I do.  The feeling comes on me suddenly and persists until I do something.  Perhaps it is that springtime is around the corner?  Shake off the cold and dark of winter and welcome in new flowers, growth, and more light?  Or is it triggered by the Lent season?

I’m not sure what is causing the feeling, but I have learned that when I get that deep itch to do something different, I need to answer it.  For this year’s itch I haven’t figured out what, exactly, to do.  I’ve been praying a lot about to be used by God and have striven to make myself available for what His will is and where it will lead me.  Is that the change?  Or should I just paint my bedroom a different color?

What about you?  Do you ever change things up in your life, or yourself? 

Time

Advertisements

Posted March 5, 2014 by Maureen in Musings, Randomness

Tagged with , ,

A Season of Singleness   Leave a comment

I like seasons.  I like the change, the differences, the anticipation of the next season.  Living in California now, we don’t really have seasons.  Oh, people here say there are seasons, but having lived in Washington State for 30+ years, I know what a season in.

I have gone through seasons in my life – have you?  Seasons that were marked by signs, then gradually you get deeper and deeper into the season, then — that anticipated first (or second or third) sign that things are changing.  Being made new. Something was on the horizon.  And being certain it is not the light on the train coming towards you.

I have been in a season of singleness for….. oh!  20+ years.  It was never my intention to stay single this long.  I’ve never liked it.  Well, at times I have. Having sole control of the remote, being able to eat what I want when I want, and not caring if something was picked up or cleaned according to someone else’s schedule: these are all things that I have liked about being single.  But over all, long-term?  Yeah, I have not liked it. 

I’ve had signs.  Little ones.  I feel the differences inside of me, see the changes on the horizon.  I think there may be a change coming up.  Marriage?  Well, God only knows about that.  But change is coming.  A new season will be here — soon?  2011?  Hmmm…. I’ll keep you posted.

Posted March 27, 2011 by Maureen in Being Single, Christian, Musings

Tagged with , , ,

Being Used   Leave a comment

I’ve been drifting for two years.  Spinning, floating, wafting, letting currents carry me, on a flimsy raft like Tom Hanks in “Castaway”.  There have been various reasons for this, and also various reasons why I allowed myself to be adrift. 

But that has changed now.  I don’t need to be adrift anymore.  I am ready to come to shore and set off through the jungles and deserts and valleys and meadows, searching and ready for adventure and what life can bring. 

Being a Christian, my desire is to seek God, to know God, and to be used by God.  This means that I want to use the gifts and talents God has given me, to bring glory to His name.  By my thoughts and words and actions.  By talking to people about my faith.  Or just being silent.  By inviting people to church, or just finding ways to talk about my church without pressure or being intimidating. 

One of the very core, deep down things that motivates me and pulls me and allows me to continue on from day to day is ——- to help.  To make a difference by my very existence.  If you say “Can you help?” to me I will 99 times out of 100 say “Yes”.  I can’t help it.  It is part of my character, part of what drives me.  Almost everything in my life can be traced back to that — I started out by helping someone.  Or I thought I could make a difference to some one or some thing.

And so I am ready to be used by God.  To perhaps get out of my comfort zone.  Gulp.  To do things or go places or be with people who are outside my experience.  Big gulp.  I have been thinking about this and praying about it and I have been searching.  What organizations can I join?  How can I use my gifts and talents to help someone?  What do I like to do, and is there an organization that does that? 

I am already a volunteer at the local Humane Society.  I have wanted to do this since I was a teenager.  I didn’t know if I would like it, I didn’t know what it would be like when I first joined.  Would it be the same as I thought it would when I was a teenager?  It has been two months now and I really do like it.  I may only spend a little time with the animals, and I don’t get to take them out of their cages and hold them, but I know that the little time I spend makes a difference to them.  I do what I can, because I can.  Because I am able.  It may be a drop in the ocean, but you just never know what a difference a drop can make.  That is where the “make a difference” motivation coming into play.

I’m ready to be used by God.  To make a difference. To help.  Stay tuned for more volunteer stories.

Posted October 16, 2010 by Maureen in Christian, Musings

Tagged with , , ,