I heard a Christian song recently, and part of the chorus went like this:
“The resurrected King is resurrecting me”
That is what I have been feeling lately. I feel, almost, ready to perhaps start dating again. Which is quite a revelation for me and I am still surprised by it.
The reason I’m feeling a bit like a resurrected being is that, for the first time in my life, I am living alone and I will perhaps be starting to date. I’ll be 59 years old pretty soon, so you would think I would have experienced this already. But no. I had my son to raise that was living with me most of the time, up until his death. Right after that, I spent 7 1/2 years being single and living alone, it was true, but I was not looking to date. I was working full time, going to school part-time (and sometimes full time) and volunteering at my church. I didn’t have time to see my girlfriends, let alone date anyone.
Then a few months after I graduated, I moved into my sister’s house. My sister who really wasn’t happy with me dating. Sharing a house with 3 others made it awkward to have a date over. The other reason I feel resurrected is that, also for the first time in my life, if I date again I will be only looking for a true Godly man for a husband. I’ve been a born-again Christian for over 30 years, but remember for most of that I was either 1) a mom or 2) not looking and not dating. I realized I had no idea what dating a true Godly man was like. I can’t say I have ever had a date with a true Godly man – ever – in my life. I have no prior experience to guide me.
What a strange place to find myself in at my age! I am moving very slowly and cautiously on this, with a lot of prayer and thought.
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