Remember the teeter totter? (Some might call them seesaws) I always loved the rush you got when you pushed up from the ground. Not so much the hard bump when you came back down again. I didn’t like playing with my brothers, as their goal was to push and pull so hard as to make me fall off.
I feel a little like being on a teeter totter lately, with this relationship I’m in. Things are still going strong. We get along very well and enjoy each other’s company. But like any relationship — ours is growing and changing with time.
After many years of guarding my heart ……. when do I stop? When is it ok to not guard so fiercely anymore? Do I let go a little at a time, like pulling the wrapping paper off gently from a package? Or do I just totally let go and accept the consequences, like ripping the wrapping paper off in one big pull? How do I know when that time is?
I continue forward, still interested in this man and still going through the changes in our relationship. But I teeter. And I totter. One thing about teeter totters, though, if you remember. They are the most fun…….. when you have the right partner.
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